The Center of Her Universe

Center of My Universe I

I was tucking the kids in tonight, and went in to Tiller’s room and sat on her bed beside her. I leaned over her, and told her how much i loved her and that i was so glad she was in my life. I told her I was proud of her. She has an indescribable look on her face when we talk like this at bedtime; all sweetness and almost a demure embarrassment, with maybe a touch of “tell me again.”

She looked at me and whispered, “Mama?”

I answered, “Yes, sweetie?”

Tiller: “Who will be my Mama and Daddy when I grow up?”

My stomach clutched. I don’t know why these questions get to me like they do. i guess my fear of one day not being there for her, of something happening to me or Todd, or god forbid, both of us.

Me: “We will always be your Mama and Daddy, no matter how big you get.”

This seemed to satisfy her for a moment, but then I saw a flash of uncertainty pass across her face.

She said, “Okay, but don’t ever live far, far away.”

Me: “I won’t baby. As long as you want to live near us, we will live together. I promise.”

It is nice to be the center of her universe, even though I know one day i won’t be. I am so thankful that every day my children teach me something about how to love more fully than I ever have before.

  2 comments for “The Center of Her Universe

  1. January 1, 2010 at 9:54 pm

    Brought a tear to my eye, so there with you and oh so true. Sophie likes me to lay with her for 5-10 minutes at bedtime, and wraps her arms so tightly around me, i just take it all in knowing one day it won’t be so. Glad we are mindful and can enjoy it while we have it. Happy New Year to you, Anne!

  2. January 2, 2010 at 12:04 pm

    happy new year to you, too, Dorothy.

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