These Important Years

So, you’ve probably been wondering where the hell I am, as normally I don’t take a shit without blogging about. I alluded to it in an earlier post, but we have our house under contract and are moving. I haven’t really had time to digest what that means for us, but I do know that I am having some serious identity crisis. I am a city girl now. I have lived in East Atlanta almost as long as I lived in my parents’ last house. But now the conflict between personal identity and parenthood has come to a head, and we made the decision to move into a better school district. We tried our damnedest to find a house we could afford in a decent intown school district to no avail. We just can’t afford private school. So, we are off to the burbs. No, we didn’t go whole hog and buy a house in Cumming or Suwanee, although we did consider the pros and cons of doing so. But when it came down to what we really wanted (shorter commutes, better access to the city (Braves game, etc.), and proximity to my sister (and my impending nephew!), we decided on . . . Atlanta. Turns out Atlanta is pretty big. The Atlanta we decided on is Dekalb Co., barely outside the perimeter, and in a great elementary district. We are getting a decent amount of house for our money, we will be close to some other friends who live in the area, and we will be staying true to our promise to educate our children well, which is the most important thing in the long run.

So, this week, Todd and I are counting down our last days in the EAV, and pretty bummed out about it. Sure, we will still come over here to drink and see old neighbors, and see shows, and for his book club, and when I just have to have a Blue Bacon Burger, but it is one of those moments where we feel really torn, and we know that having children means sacrifice and this is a sacrifice for us in many ways.

So, my sister (a.k.a. “The Best Sister in the World”) is watching the kids today while Todd and I make a seriously huge dent in the packing. (This of course also included a two-pint lunch at the Flatiron; All work and no play makes Annie very sad.) Afterwards, Todd started packing up Rollie’s room, and I have been packing the kitchen. On a side note, packing the kitchen is like playing a very weird game of Tetris; the spices are particularly satisfying to pack tightly together in the most streamlined of space-saving manners.

I was listening to an Itunes mix, with an ass ton of music on shuffle, and the Husker Du song, “These Important Years” came on, and I was reminded of the summer of 1990, packing up all of my stuff to leave for college, listening to that very song. It was one of those really strange deja vu moments, where time seems to have passed in a millisecond and to stand still at the same time, and I could be 18 or 25 or 30 or 36 (minus the tight abs and ass, of course) and I have that same sense of bittersweet excitement and sadness. The difference is that, at 36, I know that change is almost always a positive, and i have the power of hindsight, of knowing that i never regretted any of my moves, not one. They all meant the end of things that I look back fondly on now, but they also always meant that i was about to embark on something completely new that I had never experienced before: New friends, new love, new job, new place all by myself, new place all the way across the country, promotions, and learning, and husbands, and dogs, and cats, and kids. All of these were impossible if not for the constant change. Change is good. Change is responsible for these important years.

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5 Responses to “These Important Years”

  1. Reco says:

    Wow, good read Annie! Reminds me of Nas’ “Memory Lane”… 😉

    Gotta keep that whole rap translation thing going.

    Hope you’re throwing a moving away party!

  2. jasonaut says:

    Sigh. Now I have to join the book club if I ever want to see yall again. I was planning on it anyway, so consider yourself lucky.
    Also I agree on time, it seems everything is circular, or orbital. I can never tell if the orbit is expanding or contracting, but that’s what it feels like.
    Also I enjoy having money and a house and a car. That’s a pretty nice thing about this whole grownup business, except for the having to work for it which can be a drag.
    Congrats and good luck with the move.

  3. Dogwood Girl says:

    Yeah, as if we see each other so much right now! V. sad that I can run to your house from here, and I have only seen you a handful of times. Damn kids.

    Book club – you should totally join them. Are you on the buzz? I think they have a GP one. I know Todd will be doing book club and probably happy hours on friday still; I will make it out when i can get a sitter every once in a while.

    And of course you will be invited over for housewarmings and football saturdays. And I better still get invites to your shindigs.

    Agreed that the freedom of choice being a grownup gives you is pretty awesome. Kids put a dent in that freedom, but it is still nice to be the master of one’s own destiny.

  4. Dogwood Girl says:

    ha! Thanks. Not sure why my post showed up twice.

    So, that’s a first – never had my style compared to Nas before.

    Thanks for reading. And nope, no moving away party. Maybe a housewarming.

  5. Shiney Hair says:

    I’m just thrilled that you are going to be on our side of town. We can help each other garden. The kids can play with the dogs while we plant pansies. Now that’s MY idea of being an adult. I’m getting a plant delivery around March 31st. You’re off the hook this time. Your new house first. I’ll bring the Round-Up.

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