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Moonlight Mile: Complete Magic (and Terror)

There are moments, when you have children, that you want to capture in time like a fossil. You want to be able to pull it out at a moment’s notice, hard and solid, and still exactly like that moment you experienced, suspended in time.

I had one of these moments tonight. I drank wine and played ZZ Tops’ “Tres Hombres” while the kids showered. Rollie went to bed to read the new Harry Potter. Tiller came down to hang out with me. I put on “Sticky Fingers.” We looked at her yearbook from last year. (She’s excited and nervous about fifth grade.) I turned the record over to Side 2. We came to the end of the yearbook, and I lay down on the couch. She lay down on my chest and the dog lay on my feet.

It is hard to explain the stillness of this, of the rise and fall of her breath and how it sounded so very beautiful and calming to me. The way I petted her silken child’s hair, as if it would stay that way forever.

And we listened to all of side two. And as we listened to “Moonlight Mile,” we were silent and tears rolled down my cheeks. The moment was perfect and completely unrepeatable. She will never, ever, be ten again, laying on my chest listening to the Stones, and who knows where I will be a year from now.

It was complete magic. And the most terrifying thing I’ve felt in a long while.

This entry was posted on Tuesday, August 2nd, 2016 at 8:56 pm and is filed under Angst, Beauty, Brody, Family, Home, Life, Memories, Mushy, Parenthood, Tiller. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.

2 Responses to “Moonlight Mile: Complete Magic (and Terror)”

  1. Carol Riley says:
    August 3, 2016 at 1:47 pm

    Anne, that is just so lovely. Thanks for expressing it so succinctly. 🙂 Truly enjoy reading your pieces.

  2. Dogwood Girl says:
    August 4, 2016 at 10:08 am

    Thank you, Carol!

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