Category: Angst

I Knew They Would Break My Heart

  Truth is, I knew the Bulldogs were going to break my heart. I knew because it was the logical end to the worst year of my life, the one where i met disappointment and fear and pain at every turn. The one where i just slogged through 365 days in a row, hoping it would soon be over and… Read more →

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Pride, Humility, Change, Gratitude, Acceptance, Truth

I’ve learned that even really good, smart, decent, loving, respectful people make mistakes or become bogged down in things they cannot for the life of them figure out how they got into in the first place, and that they are often right there in the muck of it all with other good people, all of them and everyone around them unable to face, much less say, their truth. Instead they can’t figure out how to communicate, so they shut down and numb themselves with the thought that what their feeling is normal. I know now that you can bury a feeling with all you’ve got, but it will find a course out into the light. Read more →

Almost Thirteen: Caught Between What’s Right & Your Kid Not Hating You

I took the kids to dinner tonight. (El Mat, our go-to Mexican place. We’re regulars; we actually get The Usual.) So, I was tired and a little stressed, but I always try to put down the phone and listen when the kids are talking about school. And tonight, for whatever reason, The Boy brought up a kid at school. We’ll… Read more →

Moonlight Mile: Complete Magic (and Terror)

There are moments, when you have children, that you want to capture in time like a fossil. You want to be able to pull it out at a moment’s notice, hard and solid, and still exactly like that moment you experienced, suspended in time. I had one of these moments tonight. I drank wine and played ZZ Tops’ “Tres Hombres”… Read more →