I will be in this moment.
I will trudge on, minute by minute.
Hour by hour.
I will yearn, suppress, and hold in my hand.
Put aside with care.
I will forgive.
I will look for goodness.
I will try to be a better me.
I will try to be better for them all.
I will try to be better for you.
I will choose love, even if it turned out to be more, less, harder, and more painful than I thought it would.
I will pick mercy and never-ending attempts at understanding.
I will err in kindness.
I am sorry that I am an unlocked box.
I am sorry that I lost the key.
I am working on tracking it down.
I hope I find it.
It was here, somewhere. I swear i just had it.