To Write, or Not to Write

Much to say, and just not gutsy enough to say it, so i haven’t been posting. I have been writing, keeping it to myself. Not bottling it up, but not letting it see light, either. Part of me thinks I am a big pussy for not just writing things out in the name of honesty and forthrightness. The other part of me knows that it might cause irreparable damage.

Or maybe the damage is already done. Am I selfish for wanting to purge all of this heartache? Would it be healthy for me? Or would it just be me seeking vindication, revenge. Even if I was doing it for the right reasons, is it possible that those involved would see it that way? No. I don’t think it’s possible.

So, I guess I do have boundaries.

Huh. Didn’t see that coming. . . .

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10 comments

  • That’s what killed my blog, actually. I used to write just about every day. But then stuff started happening that I didn’t want to share. But I was so preoccupied with it that I couldn’t write about anything else, either. And then poof. No more blog.

    I hope that doesn’t happen to you. I really enjoy your insights.

  • I love your blogs and what you have to say- you have a good way with words.
    By the way can you send me some of your bad ass, straight to the point powers I need it for tomorrow:)

  • Thanks, Kara. That means a lot to me, as I value your opinion, though I do not know you well. (Funny how the buzz gives you some insight into folks, even when you don’t hang out with them.) I don’t see me giving up on the blog, but when there are days that I don’t write, they are often because of either sheer busyness, or something pretty heavy going on in my life that I haven’t processed, or can’t bring myself to write about because it would pain others or come across as vindictive or petty. (Occasionally, i get really angry and slip into the petty territory. Not often, but sometimes.)

    Shannon – Twould be nice if I could trade some of my Bull In a China Shop Loudmouthiness for some of your sweetness, compassion, and thoughtfulness. I actually think that if we could somehow use my DNA and Vanessa’s DNA and combine the two, we would have one awesome woman.

  • that just made me laugh really hard- good thinking I will go start working on my genetic cloning skill or whatever it would be:)

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